I......am not feeling so chipper today. As a matter of fact, I feel pretty down. I guess I'm just tired of hobbling around and hurting all the time.
AND....putting an ice pack on my knee HURTS even though it takes down the swelling.
AND...I'm tired of not wanting to take drugs, even when it hurts really bad, because of a very bad episode with some percocet. (It SAID 1-2 tablets. Common sense would dictate that if you're in pretty extreme pain, you would take 2, right? yeah. well, it doesn't say anything about your heart beating out of your chest and getting cold sweats 20 minutes after you take it, now does it? Yeah, let's just scare the crap out of me thinking I OD'd myself on two pain pills @@)
AND...you know what else? I feel like I shouldn't complain anymore, because when somebody says 'How are you?', I don't want to tell the truth, which is 'same as the day before...and the day before.....not feeling good....I hurt, and I'm depressed...but enough about me. How are you?!' ::sigh:: I just wish things were normal.
My eating habits are all wonky. I just haven't been hungry at all......having to force myself to eat something. Oh well....I guess that's a good way to lose a little of my big butt. Maybe it works out. I'm not that mobile anymore, so not eating as much is probably a good thing......
I can't sleep, either. Not sure what's up with that, because by 1 AM, I SHOULD be tired, right?! But.......I laid there listening to noises and trying to read. Snoring, squeaking, dog growling in his sleep, cats running around, tree branch falling on the roof, blah blah blah.......besides, being in pain all the time is exhausting, right? So, why wouldn't I be able to sleep?! urg......
Sounds like one big pity party at my house, doesn't it?!
Oh well... tomorrow's another day. Hopefully.