ALIIIIIIVE!!! She's ALIVEEEEE!!!!!!
Yeah...I've survived another migraine. Ick. Besides that, I've had a nervous breakdown of sorts. 2 nights ago, I was sitting at the table while Jesse cooked dinner and I was just quiet so he said 'What's up with you?' I said 'Nothing.' He said 'Ummmmm...ok, I've got 4 minutes before I gotta turn this steak. I'm sitting down and you're gonna tell me why you're so sad.' I looked at him, and then the tears just came and I starting talking "I'm so tired and I don't LIKE my kids right now and all they do is ask me to serve them and I don't mind most of the time but nobody appreciates me and I know I love being home all the time but I think I'm going insane and if I don't want to be home then am I a bad mother and I'm tired of being in pain from this stupid accident and not wanting to complain every day about it and <etc> .................' and I ended with a squeak and a snotty nose. So, Jesse looked at me and said 'Honey, do you need a weekend alone? Do you want me to send you to a resort for the weekend? Do you want advice or do you want me to just listen?' So needless to say, I had my spaz-out and I'm feeling a little better. A little.
("Oh, look.....Amy is crazy. Everyone back away slowly." Hee....)
So....I'm doing bills today....all the while mumbling while I'm writing out the bills 'Here's your $127.00, you miserable <bleeping> doctor...' 'Here's your $254.00, you miserable <bleeping> electric company!' Haaa.....I'm liking this new form of anger management. Let's hope one of the bill collectors calls me today. I just may pick up the phone. ::maniacal laughter::