I....am feeling incredibly sad today.
Jesse went on his 2 week Reserves duty this morning and I can't stop crying. Odd, really....we do this every year, sometimes twice a year and I usually feel a little bummed, but nothing like this. I feel like my heart has been ripped out. I could barely talk to him on the phone without breaking down.
Stress, I guess, with moving, being crammed in at my moms so long, and what-have-you....but trying not to cry in front of the kids is giving me a headache. Trying not to cry in front of my mom and put on the happy face is giving me a headache too. I just don't want to deal with the 'Oh, you should get out and forget about it....' because I don't want to get out and forget about it. I want my husband back. Now.
I'm not liking life lately.