Friday, December 12, 2008

Mixed feelings about it....

Dieting, that is. Eating right, whatever you want to call it.

Guido posted about his dislike of diets (amen, dude! LOL)....and that got me thinking.

I'm kinda.....non-skinny. I used to be skinny. (Remember when I got into that car accident? My doctor said if I had a little more meat on my bones, my injuries would not have been as bad as they were. Something to think about there, isn't it?)

So that brings me to thinking.....that I really do not want to diet. I don't. At all. But.....I don't know how to dress my chubby self. I don't know how to dress my older self. I'm a freaking mess. I knew how to dress my skinny self! ::sigh::

My Lexapro is not working and I don't like the holidays.

I'm all kinds of jacked up.

I want to go see my psych, but I'm afraid to drive through the Medical Center. Sure, I can drive more now (whereas before, I would rather have dropped a hammer on my toe than drive) but....unless I have Jesse take me.... Meh.

I'm rambly.


  1. As soon as I quit dieting I lost weight. Diets make me crazy.

    I wish I could take you to the Medical Center so you could get a new Vitamin. I am with you. I feel a bit of a hot mess and need to get to a psychiatrist and up my vitamin W. I can't get in until February.

    The holidays will be over soon. Hooray!!

  2. Hi Amy,
    I agree ... forget "dieting." But why not simply "eat right" and let the rest take care of itself? This probably doesn't sound right ... what I mean is, why not eat healthy foods and not worry so much about your day-to-day weight unless the doctor tells you it's a problem. I'm betting that you look great -- not fat -- but are being kind of hard on yourself.

  3. Maybe if you did the housework more often you'd lose some weight ;o)

    If I eat healthy food I drop weight too quick. I have to eat pizza, chocolate, chips and cake just to stay at a normal weight. I have the skinny gene!

  4. You're not supposed to diet during the holidays! That's the whole point!

  5. I think Marty speaks with great wisdom.

  6. Oh I can so relate to this entry! I love being thin and in great shape, but then when I consider my age, if I knew how to dress for "chunky" I'd be just fine and be able to give up the workouts forever! I'm a freak about fat showing, I have to cover it completely.

    I've decided to worry about it later.

  7. Diet has the word "die" in it and I would rather die then go on one thank you very much. Just embrace the new fuller figured you and stop worrying about it! Heal your mind first then worry about the outer shell.
    Love you!
    LL Cool Whip
    mmmmm cool whip LOL!

  8. Oh. Um. Hmmm.

    OK. If you've hit a particular weight that your body seems to want to stay at (as opposed to continued gain), perhaps you should just make peace with it. Do things that make you feel good - you know, eat right, make a couple of laps around the mall before going for the Starbucks - but don't get worried about your appearance.

    I told my oldest that I wanted to lose weight, and she just looked at me and said, "WHY?! You're soft and huggable..."


    Thanks, kid. (I think she just doesn't want me dieting because it screws up the food that's available to her.)

  9. I'm not fat, I'm just fluffy. The result of 20 years of dieting. For ever ten pounds I have ever lost I found 15.

  10. I hate dieting also ~ I love food! I love the creation of it, the whole bringing about of the experience ~ it is a sensory experience that is one of the best things in this world, in this world of the living. 10 years ago I was a size 10 ::I'm 5'9":: or was then (I've shrunk some believe it or not) yes, I got a lot of looks but I really didn't give a damn, and I wasn't happy.
    Now? I could probably stand to loose about 30 lbs. for my health (my knees and back etc.) but that's all I would lose. I like my body (most of the time, when I'm not feeling put upon by the fashion industry and this society's outlook on how women should look) I'm me, deal with it. Cindy loves me like I am.
    As far as the Lexapro? honey find something that does's hard I know, how they work with you changes know that and don't need me to tell you. Right now? I'm depressed as hell and I can't afford medications or to go to the Doctor. Love you Sistah Dear** Teresa

  11. By the way, I think I hate Brainwhispers for his skinny gene.

    I will say, however, that I really like his pic. Yummy...

    Am I allowed to virtually ogle your other commenters? ::does my best innocent face::

  12. I hate how much I love food. I'm tired of being fat, but I love food oh-so-very-much.

  13. Oh, Amy I so relate to your feelings! I am morally against dieting, I don't like to exercise, and I love beer. I lost a lot of weight and looked so hot before I moved to PA, but over the next five years I gained it all back plus more. I've been so miserable the last few years, and for a long time when I looked in the mirror I didn't recognize myself anymore. I hate having my picture taken. I don't enjoy shopping nearly as much as I used to.

    I've been cutting back on the beer to lose some pounds, and that helps. I'm somewhere in the middle of accepting the way I am and making gradual long-term changes...but it's slow going!

    The upside is that my "girls" now form a nice little shelf on which to snuggle babies and kittens.

  14. Yes I think I'm going to skip the dieting and just try to beef up my activity levels and walk on my treadmill while channel flipping and watching all my recorded DVR shows or while playing all of my fastest most upbeat music I can find. I was SUPPOSED to start this yesterday. The day before I figured that since I mopped the floor I could skip the treadmill. LOL.


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